The nature of beauty

I have this habit that I developed when I decided that I valued my own honor, of diminishing the availability of beautiful women. I invent them. I invent them as deeply in love with another, or too much of a friend to ever risk, or out of my league, or looking for something I cannot give. I do this to provide myself the opportunity to ignore beauty. To respect and realize its presence without the world stopping to stand in awe.